I have something to get off my chest. I do not care about graduating from this college or, more importantly, life anymore. No, that DOES NOT mean that I want to commit suicide. I have just become indifferent to what is out there. I just feel like a ghost floating from place to place. I know I seem very happy when you guys see me, but I don't want you guys to be concerned. Inside, there is the perverbial fox gnawing at me from the inside. You would think that music would help me more with this feeling, but I just can't get excited about it like I used to. I used to look forward to going to any ensemble I am a part of and make music with my friends. Now I feel that I have to go to band or choir because someone forced me to. Music still does move me and I still love to play and sing, to make things clear. I am grateful to my freedom to be in music and make a career out if it, but I am just not happy with it anymore. I guess that I want to be a part of a group. But that group has to work hard with an occasional day of ADD, not the other way around. I want to see a group that shows constant respect to the director and that director to have equal respect for every section. That statement DOES NOT reflect any teacher at WSC. That may not ever happen, but wouldn't be nice?
There might be more to come....
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